Your name still breaks my heart.


i want to be back there. i want to be between life and death…


I am sorry for not being what you expected 
For not cleaning my room 
For not talking with you about my problems 
For not be able to be happy
For not being so amazing like my brother
For being in hospital with eating disorder 
For lying about not having ed 
For smoking 
For taking drugs
For drinking alcohol 
For being such a fucking idiot 
For my existenc